Saturday, August 25, 2007

It hurts.

posted by isabelly (: @ 12:32 AM 0 comments

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

I honestly believe that our physical exhaustion only starts to take its toll on us once we let trivial matters take over our mental state, leaving us both physically and mentally exhausted. I thought that by ridding myself of extraneous things, I could somehow conceal some past blemishes. I'm not seeing much progress because everytime I start to build momentum towards something great, I'm haunted by past mistakes and somewhere along the line, progress is lost. It fell hopelessly into the infinite abyss. I'm losing my steam, my momentum, right when I need it the most. I can feel myself slipping, and I can't afford that, not now. Everything, including things that aren't supposed to matter, is starting to wear me down. My blemishes and weaknesses are becoming more apparent as each day progresses. Maybe I just need to time to adjust to everything, but now that I think of it, maybe time isn't the issue. I think we use Time as our 'foolproof plan,' but then again, we all hate Time so much. We rant, we scream, we critisize, we belittle, but we get nowhere. Maybe we only learn to trust time and value it when we have faith.

dontgiveup

posted by isabelly (: @ 6:17 PM 0 comments

Saturday, October 07, 2006

i hate this. every time, without fail, i get so jealous. things seem to go well for a while, but inevitably, it comes crashing down. is it wrong for me to be so selfish? i read a quote once but i can't remember it now. it meant so much to me at the time, but i didn't even take the time to remember it. that reveals so much about me. i'm lost and i have nowhere to go. save me. kill me. protect me. i don't even know. maybe leave me alone. maybe hug me. take me out. make everything alright. make me cry but don't let me feel the pain. give me a reason to trust you and feel guilty for ever doubting you. keep your promises. make me laugh until my sides hurt and forget that there's something wrong with me. don't ever leave me alone. pretend that you're mad because you know i'll think you're serious and show you that i care. make me feel pretty just by looking at me. tell me i'm going to be somebody, no matter what mistakes i make. let me know i mean something, that i'm worth something.
to put it simply, i want you to give me everything. but what do i give you?

posted by isabelly (: @ 10:13 PM 0 comments